Gravity

Lately my life has seemed to be quite complicated. I have become one of those girls I used to mock. The ones who can never make up their mind, who don't really know what they want - one thing one minute and another the next. You know the type. Dumb.

But for some reason I find myself falling into the trap. Yuck. I don't like it. But I can't help it! I don't know what my deal is. I decide I'm done with something and am all ready and gung-ho to walk away. And then it happens. I fall victim to the classic blunder that plagues the world of decisive people - I change my mind.

It reminds me of a song... Gravity by Sara Bareilles:

Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone...
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile. When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone...
You're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down
Something always brings me back to you. It never takes too long.

I keep coming back to something I'm not sure I ultimately want. Sure, now I do. But in the end? I don't know. That's the problem. I can't make up my mind. I want to be set free and left alone, but then something always brings me back. And it really never takes too long.
Ridiculous.

Midget Hot Chocolate

So there's this place downtown - its a family chocolatier. It is absolutely fantastic! Probably the best hot chocolate I have ever had! Its incredible.
And what makes it even better is it is owned by midgets.

Now don't think I'm judging - I'm not. I think it is the coolest thing ever! Some might argue that is because I'm so close to their size that I feel like I belong... But that's not the case. I just think its awesome. The service is great. The chocolate is amazing. And the counters are low to the ground.

I love it. I'm going there tonight.

San Diego

So my friends and I all thought San Diego sounded nice in the middle of December, so we packed up our bags and went for 5 days. We stayed at Branson's parents house in Chula Vista. It was a lot of fun. A lot of close calls and a couple times where we could have died on the road, but we made it there and back soundly. Perhaps not safely. Ha ha (Thanks a lot, Branson...)

Sidestory: On the way into San Diego, Branson was driving my car. (Yes, my baby that was just fixed and made new again. So you can imagine how weary I was that anything should happen to it.) He thought that it would be funny and entertaining to shoot the gap between a truck and a semi... Now let me explain something - I HATE it when people shoot the gap. Its one thing to do it by yourself, but with someone else's car with other people in it... Nuh uh. Not ok. So he decided to shoot the gap one time and literally came within inches! Had my window been down, my hand would have gotten chopped off if I even thought about sticking it out. Seriously. 3 or 4 inches MAX! I wigged. I was livid. I couldn't believe he did that. I freaked a little. Ok a lot. And I yelled at him and I hit him. Yeah, I was pretty upset.
But it was a good trip. We went to the San Diego County Credit Union Poinsettia Bowl Game (I know, could you have a longer name for it??) between the University of Utah and Navy. It was an excellent game. One of the best I've been to in a while. Utah pulled off a win of 35 - 32. And it was the most sportsmanship-filled game I've ever seen. I was proud to represent Utah.

It was a little cold, but still a good time. But California was beautiful! The sunsets were incredible! I wish I could have the mountains and the ocean at the same time... I'll have to work on that...

It was a lot of fun! A much needed vacation. The only problem now is that I want to go again... Dang job that I love that keeps me confined to Salt Lake City 5 out of every 7 days... Blast. Anyway, it was a good trip. There were a few frustrating moments, but we all got through them. The sad part is, I'm already ready to go back! Being a beach bum sounds awfully fun. But that's not ecomonical. Ha ha And probably not so smart. Oh well. I'll just sit here at my cold desk, watch the snow fall outside the window, dreading driving in it, and dream of beautiful CA... Dang snow-filled winter. MmMmm the beach!

Merry Christmas

First things first. Merry Christmas! What a great day yesterday was. Our family had one of the best Christmases any of us could remember. It was fantastic.

It was a little bittersweet at times. It is the last Christmas we will all have together for a while. Austin will be on a mission for sure next Christmas, with the possibility of me being gone as well. And from then on out for 10 years, someone will always be missing. It was kind of sad to think about it like that. But it couldn't have been a better last Christmas just the 10 of us. It was perfect.

So here's wishing everyone's Christmas was as great as mine!

Reunited

AH! What a beautiful day Friday was! I was finally reunited with my car! After 3 and a half painful, inconvenient weeks, my car was finally finished.

It was a pretty emotional moment for me. Ha ha I would be lying if I said that I didn't get teary-eyed when I first saw my car. My dad and I drove up the street and it was sitting out front, beautiful and clean, pre-sneeze condition, if you will. It was beautiful! And the tears welled in my grateful eyes.

I'm not sure if the tears were mostly excitement to have it back, remembering the wreck and recognizing how grateful I truly was to not be injured, or a combination of both. It was great, though! I got in the drivers seat and felt at home. OH HOW I MISSED MY CAR! But now we've been reunited and life is much cheerier. Not just for me, either. Tay's been a good sport letting me use his car. Sweet. He's a good kid. He about did cartwheels when he realized he was getting his car back. How precious.

Moral of the story: I will never sneeze while driving again.

Billy Joel

Billy Joel. The Piano Man. What an excellent show!
It was totally rad! He was amazing. And when he started to sing, " I am the entertainer", I had to hold back my tears. Beautiful. Ha ha Ok, so I didn't really come close to crying, but it was pretty awesome.

We didn't start the fire! Really, what more is there to say?